Monday, August 15, 2011

Please Make it Stop: A bunch of scary semi-grown-up stuff that's happening right now.

I know I am literally the world's worst blogger. I also know that I over-use the word literally. But here's what's been going on lately.

  • Summer coming to a close. (Which I did NOT okay, but it's almost as if no one cares...)
  • Jacklyn getting hitched (CHECK!)
  • Getting ready for student teaching (HOLY CRAP WHAT I'M SCARED HELP ME NOW!)

So as you can see I've been very busy/fragile recently so maybe it'll make me more forgivable. 

Well Jacklyn is officially married. It was definitely one of the top weekends of the summer (really only topped by my twenty-first birthday at the beginning of the summer and her bachelorette party last weekend, and that's because those are intended to be crazy-never-spoken-about-again-weekends which are automatically the MOST fun). It was honestly such a beautiful weekend and without going overly after-school-speical on you I have to say being a part of it was just an amazing experience. I feel like this wedding was so special to me. I've lived with Jacklyn for the past two and a half years, and she's become one of my dearest friends. I was also lucky enough to be part of the group that was there for her and Matt's engagement (Check out the GORGEOUS tear-jerking video!) Their day flew by, but it was picture perfect! She was a stunning bride! And I don't have a camera so I'm forced to wait for other people to upload their pictures of the weekend, so until then I'll just give you a couple crappys that I snapped on my phone.  

This is not a good picture, but it DOES show
our dresses and the color scheme and
pretty plates and yada yada.

Happy little couple.

Just lovely lovely lovely. 


So today I had to wake up at 5:30 because Taylor's been house sitting and that's when he woke up for work and I had to leave when he left cause I didn't have a key (whoaaaa long boring run-on sentence). Anyways, we woke up at 5:30 which was so ungodly early and I was rolling in the sheets around crying "Ohh my gosh NOOOO this sucksssss I hate morningssssssss."  You know all dramatic like. And then I was like, "OH-MY-GOD. One week from today I will be awake at this time BY CHOICE because I have to be at the school by SEVEN!" And then I was freaking out more. This is NOT okay! Here are my real feelings about this: 

I am excited* to start student teaching. However, along with excited* come words such as anxious, terrified, panicked and nervous-wreck. Just to name a few. I met with my cooperating teacher last week, and she's absolutely awesome. Meeting with her definitely calmed me down a little bit. After ten years of teaching first grade, this is her first time teaching fourth, so even though I'll be wayyy out of my comfort zone with big kids, it's nice to know that we'll both be dealing with a lot of new experiences together. And I love kids and I am ready to be back in the classroom setting for sure. But still, I am a girl of many freak-outs. In all honestly, I am nothing short of terrified, slightly traumatized, and I no longer judge people for self-medicating to treat panic attacks cause I'm like 96% sure I've had about fifteen in the past three hours and it's time to get this mess UNDER CONTROL. If there are any readers out there who have been in my shoes before and have any comforting words of wisdom, help please, my sanity is at stake.

The only thing that is keeping me from falling apart right now and maintaining a sense of normalcy is the fact that it's MONDAY which means BACHELOR PAD!!!!!!! Two drama-filled hours. Love it. Also I've been thinking really really vivid thoughts about Chick-fil-a for like a week and a half so I will more than likely treat myself for dinner.

So there you have it. The super grown-up things that have been scaring the mess out of me. (Well, there's nothing grown-up about Bachelor Pad and Chick-fil-a but thats okay.) I have six days left before the real word rudely comes to call, so buy me a drink and drop an encouraging line before I LOSE IT and this becomes my face PERMANENTLY.

Slowly losing my mind. With Style.
No really, I'M FINE!

*Love and Other Indoor Sports,


*P.S. If you can tell me what Judy Blume book that is from I will name you my soulmate and it will be so impressive. I love Judy Blume.

1 comment:

  1. 1. Words of Wisdom/Advise/It's COMPLETELY ok to be freaking out:
    Student Teaching will be the most exciting/scary/rewarding thing you will do in your college-preparing-for-the-real-world-career. You are going to do AMAZING and the kids are going to adore you. Just remember, they are just as nervous (probably even more nervous) than you are. Start out the year more stern than flexible, because you can always relax more, but if you give them an inch in the beginning they will run ALL over you. Take time to learn everyone's name as quickly as possible, becuase for some freak-o wierd reason they all get a kick out of it when you can call them by their name. Wear comfortable shoes because your feet will ache (which is where your awesome salon job comes in handy preparing your for student teaching!). When you get home from school and have 1000 things to do before the next day, take an hour, put your feet up, make yourself a grown up beverage and take some time to B.R.E.A.T.H.E. I did that every night and I swear it made all the difference in the world.

    2. Call me if you ever need ANYTHING during the semeseter. I still have some teacher things and if you need someone to bounce ideas off of, I'm your girl. Also, when the weekend rolls around and you are ready to let loose and blow off some steam, I pretty much minored in that in college, so again, I should probably be your first call ;)

    3. I believe the book you reference is: Starring Sally J.Freedman as Herself, which is not only a fantastic book, but an incredibly clever way to sign off. You are too cute for your own good!

    So, how'd I do Ms. Hickson? Do I get a gold star for longest blog comment ever? :) hahaha LOVE YOU!!!



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